108. Light Sleep

Senior Poopy Pants. He went to the bathroom 3 times today. He never stops. He rolled over while he was with Abuela and Abuelo. He spent the day with them.

I'm missing him, my arms ache for him. I had an interview at Addabbo. I got to show Tina, Kathy, and Jeff photos of my baby. They feel like family to me, not in-laws or even friends I've come to see as family, because they can choose me, but I can't choose them. A work family, even though I haven't seen them since I left. It's odd. I hope I'm the best qualified candidate for the job there. I would really like to be reunited with my work family. If not there will be others.

Sunday Eric and Diego got to hang out with William. Veronica, Abuelo, Abuela, Aida and Natasia came. There was a family gathering. I took William upstairs because I thought he was over stimulated. Upstairs, he kept looking around, like he expected something to happen. I read that as him wanting to see what's going on. I took him back down stairs. Diana said, "were you projecting?!"

Jeff said his son started sleeping through the night when he got his own room. William has one more week of the bassinet in our room. Josephine is getting close to her due date, and she wants it back. We could have taken it apart and taken it to Virginia's last week, but I didn't want to. Even though I try to embrace change, my heart sunk when Virginia said he might be cutting his first tooth. What milestone is that? Diana says he can sometimes be rough on her nipple. I said take him off, shape that behavior quickly. She laughs at me.

Don in Seattle says I need to read to my baby every day. So I read him some of the book I was reading, while he wiggled on the bed. Later he fell asleep and Diana put him next to me. He usually wakes up from his first attempt at sleep, so she didn't put him in the bassinet. He arches for food, then gets angry when it's not there. I take him to his momma, and she feeds him.

William has the cutest outfit on when I come home, after Bob has helped me with my flat tire. He has on a kind of Hawaiian shirt and shorts. Diana says, "they're one of Aida's sister's clothes she gave us, that still had the tags on, they were never worn." She also said Natasia called up all excited that William had turned over. I have a pang of guilt because I didn't spend much time with her on Sunday when I saw her, I was too wrapped up in William or my book.

William sometimes gets distracted by his hand, by his wrist. Tonight he turned around and smiled at his mother. He likes attention and smiling can get it. Bob says they a good photos, he smiles for the camera.

William went to bed, but he woke up after midnight. He thrashes for a while, you hear the thump of his feet as he lifts them and lets them drop. He grunts, and sighs and breaths heavily. But last night I could not really hear that over Diana's snoring, so he had to give a little cry. Back to bed for me.