106. Tooth?

I haven't written in a while. I like it, but sometimes it can be a bit much. Thursday I took care of William from the time I dropped Diana off at work (8), till she got back from a teachers store at 6:30. He did take a 2.5 hour nap, which made the last hours easy. Quite a long nap. That was a long day, but wonderful. I would not naturally choose to take care of him alone for such a long time, but somehow it worked out, and I didn't feel like aggressively looking for help. But the next day I let Abuela take care of him all day. Now it's the weekend, and Virginia helps out. Tomorrow the whole family will be here.

Developments: It looks like William might cough for attention. He coughs quite a lot at times, and he's figured out it gets us to look. Diana and I had the thoughts independently before we spoke it.

I fed him alone, and there's a web site of it. He had sweet potatoes. Rich says it looks red, but it's orange.

He makes the peace sign. He holds up two fingers. I think he likes the way it looks sometimes.

Thursday night there were 3 bottles of formula left, I didn't imagine with Diana home, we would run out. But he stayed up till 1, and there was only half a bottle left. Diana woke me up at 6:30 to tell me that. She left, with 4 hours sleep, for work. Before she left, she called her mother to see if they had any formula. They did not. Since her mother was awake, I asked if she could get us some formula, even though she gets home at 2 in the morning from her job cleaning offices. Bunch of hard workers, these Salazar women.

She called me Thursday, she missed seeing William. She went to Veronica's graduation, that was why she could not help me, and then went straight to work. So she was pining to see William, so I let her have him. Virginia laughs when I say that I'm not sure how much to hold onto him, and how much to share. She says that her mother will never say she can't take care of William. And I have seen other's take advantage of her willingness to see her grand children. I do not want to do that. I hope I did not do that Friday. And what did I do? I meditated, made a web site, and then watched 6 hours of Angels In America, a very powerful play.

Last night Virginia took care of William overnight. I fell asleep early, and Diana came to bed around midnight. Virginia says William woke up at 4 for feeding. When we woke up at 8:30, they were awake. Diana got 8 hours, that must have felt good for her. I say this, not as rationalization for my actions, but as appreciation of strength. I think women don't need as much sleep. Virginia functions fine.

This morning I used Virginia's digital camera to take a whole mess of photos of William. I uploaded them to Snapfish. I really hope Snapfish does not go out of business. I have a lot of photos stored there. I guess we have backups on her computer and mine, but all this digital information. I should buy a backup disk drive. I ordered hard copies. He's such a cuttie.

When I didn't see him from 8-3 on Friday I missed him terribly. They have gone shopping with him, and he's been gone for a few hours. I can't wait to see him.

I had a horrible sinking feeling when Virginia said she felt a tooth. It might just be a ridge in his gum, but he also might be cutting a tooth.